Yes, it's a tough day today. Why? I'm not really sure. Was it the "phone screening interview" I had today that could have gone better? Maybe. It certainly isn't the weather since it's warm and sunny. Is it just part of my continuing adjustment phase? Probably that's a big part of it. I miss people. It's hard.
So today I cried, talked to a friend in Poland, did laundry, posted my resume online and just tried to do as much as I could. The day is not over so we will see what the rest of the day holds. And there is always tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Each day is new
Today was a good day. No, nothing in particular happened to make it 'good'. I had some plans for the day, just things to get done. But it didn't happen quite as I planned - big surprise! Some things were outside of my plans and other things will happen later.
What I've learned over the past year or so is that each day is new, different and not dependant on the emotions or events of yesterday. Some days during this past year have been very dark, emotionally. And at first, I would project the thoughts and emotions of those days - ad infinitum.
But whether the days are dark or bright, God has me (you) and each day in His hands. I might be overwhelmed with the shopping variety here, the gourmet items at Trader Joes's and the portions at restaurants but I don't need to be overwhelmed by my emotions. They are valid, part of me but tomorrow is another day.
What I've learned over the past year or so is that each day is new, different and not dependant on the emotions or events of yesterday. Some days during this past year have been very dark, emotionally. And at first, I would project the thoughts and emotions of those days - ad infinitum.
But whether the days are dark or bright, God has me (you) and each day in His hands. I might be overwhelmed with the shopping variety here, the gourmet items at Trader Joes's and the portions at restaurants but I don't need to be overwhelmed by my emotions. They are valid, part of me but tomorrow is another day.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Now in California
A 'woman on the edge' has nothing on a 'woman in transition'! I would say the emotions are just as unstable but at least this woman in transition isn't so aggressive as 'a woman on the edge'! I'm more overwhelmed by everything and tired a lot.
Resume writing is new all over again. I don't even remember the last time I wrote one, easily 15 years ago. It's all the more difficult to write since I don't know what I want to do!!
I knew this would be a new adventure for me. But I thought a benefit of this adventure would be that I could do this one in English. (In Poland, success in communication wasn't a given.) The other day I went into a store to get some change. But I was unsuccessful because the cashier only spoke Spanish. That's not one of my languages! And many job opportunities want someone bilingual and the other language desired isn't Polish. Go figure!
Resume writing is new all over again. I don't even remember the last time I wrote one, easily 15 years ago. It's all the more difficult to write since I don't know what I want to do!!
I knew this would be a new adventure for me. But I thought a benefit of this adventure would be that I could do this one in English. (In Poland, success in communication wasn't a given.) The other day I went into a store to get some change. But I was unsuccessful because the cashier only spoke Spanish. That's not one of my languages! And many job opportunities want someone bilingual and the other language desired isn't Polish. Go figure!
Friday, September 02, 2005
Brief Update
Five weeks since I last updated. A lot has happened in terms of relaxing and having fun. It will take me a couple of 'posts' to really get caught up with everything but here it is in a nutshell.
I bought a used car (Toyota) that I'm very happy with and early in August I drove down to Santa Cruz with Sabina, my best buddy from Poland. We took our time driving down along the coast, enjoying all the sights, sounds and taste treats! We investigated the Santa Cruz area a bit since this is where I'm going to relocate. We also drove down and saw Disneyland. Although neither one of us are in the 'kid' category this place is for the young at heart no matter the age. We had a great time!
It was a wonderful trip but I'm sorry to say that Sabina flew back to Poland yesterday. It was very difficult to say good-bye for both of us. The next visit is up in the air BUT it will happen.
Now I really enter into the serious job search phase of post missionary work. I would probably be more enthusiastic about it if I knew what I wanted to do. But I trust God will direct me. He is good and He has a plan!
More later about thoughts, feelings and experiences.
I bought a used car (Toyota) that I'm very happy with and early in August I drove down to Santa Cruz with Sabina, my best buddy from Poland. We took our time driving down along the coast, enjoying all the sights, sounds and taste treats! We investigated the Santa Cruz area a bit since this is where I'm going to relocate. We also drove down and saw Disneyland. Although neither one of us are in the 'kid' category this place is for the young at heart no matter the age. We had a great time!
It was a wonderful trip but I'm sorry to say that Sabina flew back to Poland yesterday. It was very difficult to say good-bye for both of us. The next visit is up in the air BUT it will happen.
Now I really enter into the serious job search phase of post missionary work. I would probably be more enthusiastic about it if I knew what I wanted to do. But I trust God will direct me. He is good and He has a plan!
More later about thoughts, feelings and experiences.
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